UPDATED!

I gained almost an extra 4kg since the last time I posted my weight diary back in 2013, but I’m currently on a proper slimming journey kindly sponsored by Han Dian TCM. Results so far have been good and I’m currently slimmer than before already! Follow my journey:

• My Slimming Journey with Han Dian TCM (汉典中医) – Part 1
• My Slimming Journey with Han Dian TCM (汉典中医) – Part 2

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Notice that my blog rarely contains my real personal rants right? It’s going to change a little from now on.

You know, I never wanted this so badly till I just looked at myself in the mirror today and it just suddenly dawned on me that I’m like… really freaking fat. Let’s be completely honest, the last time I weighed myself was like a couple of months ago and I was 54kg. I’m a 155 so I think that pretty qualifies me as being too fat for my height right?

I thought 54kg was okay actually because since young, my weight has been hovering from 52 – 58kg at the peak but it has always been my freaking dream to be slim OR AT LEAST like, you know:

1. Go out without a jacket (it’s REALLY HOT) when I’m wearing sleeveless dresses
2. I want to wear shorts and not have my thighs look like Godzilla
3. I don’t want to look fat in photographs that people take of me
4. I want to be able to buy ANY apparels online and it can FIT me without myself being disappointed
5. I don’t want to feel fat standing next to most girls or guys

Great example: Unposted photo from the recent Singapore Blog Awards with some bloggers including a blogger friend. I was too ashamed to even tag myself in the photo because I looked so fat. So these photos are here to remind myself – I DON’T WANT TO LOOK LIKE THIS.

All this while, I kept deluding myself for years that well, okay, I have an okay and small face (don’t let me even start on my hereditary dark eye circles where I slap on 3 layers of 2 different types of concealers and a huge amount of powder just to look a little normal) so I can fool myself that I actually look slimmer by taking photos of just my face.

Bah, just little lies

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT?

It’s REALLY time for me to shed those KGS that I’ve dreaming of doing. And recently, I’ve been indulging so much in food (I can’t resist), I’m pretty sure that I’ve hit 58kg (YES NOW) or EVEN MORE. Don’t really need people to tell me that – I know. I can tell that I can’t fit into clothes that I used to fit, tummy is bigger especially because of my desk bound job, loads of extra fats and my thighs are like TRIPLE the size of an average Singaporean girl.

I’m just looking to shed to my dream weight of 47kg or at least 10kg. Then we’ll see where it goes from there. And in order to make myself determined to fulfill this dream weight, I decided to record all that I’ve eaten and all that blahblahblah into daily blog posts which I hope it can..HOPEFULLY make me stick to what I’ve made up my mind to do.

What I’m doing?

Nothing crazy. Really

• Cut down on my food intake **(IMPORTANT)**
• Hopefully run 1 – 2 times a week at least twice
• Not indulge in snacks and too much food
• Make the right choice – don’t overorder, don’t stuff myself

This is because I’m gaining weight because..well, I’m seriously eating too much.

And I know how super hard it is to cut down because I’ve put it off for the past 10 years. But to be completely honest, I’m going to cheat (and I’ll write it here) by indulging sometimes because well, I am still a food blogger right? D:

I started this evening and this is what I’ve done so far:

✓ I ran for a bit. Okay, ran for like 15 minutes and died half way and just walked back.

Honestly, I really don’t know if this will work, but I’m going to try. Well, you’ll know that it doesn’t work when you see me not update anymore about it. And since I blog everyday – it’ll be kinda obvious XDOkay, back to serious business: